Mystery Box - Understanding autistic employees

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Case study
This post is a case study. Since it is based on real-life situations I have experienced or witnessed, some details - most notably dates and names - had to be changed or anonymized to avoid legal disputes with organizations or disclosing identities of persons involved. That being said, there might be inaccuracies, however I put my best efforts to keep the merit highlighted in the study.
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Communication between neurotypical and neurodivergent individuals is often difficult, and requires patience and eagerness to learn from both sides. According to double empathy problem, the communication struggles between autistics and allistics (non-autistics) stem from mutual misunderstandings, and difficulty to internalize how the other group sees and interprets the surroundings and communication, rather than autistics’ inherent inability to communicate. However, the struggle is real and leads to difficult situations at school, at work and in families - especially given that in most of such settings, what is accepted as a norm or expected as a professional approach is strictly neurotypical, making it difficult for autistics to adapt.

In this post, I attempt to share an autistic perspective on various work-related situations, expectations and communication with neurotypical bosses, colleagues and interviewers. Please be mindful that the autistic community is immensely diverse - my experiences are not representative of the entire autistic population. Not all of us experience the same difficulties, and not to the same degree - however, my observations of autistic communities I joined indicate there is some degree of similarity, and parallels can often be drawn.

Can we choose when to be autistic?

Context
Throughout my life, I have been asked, ordered, or threatened to stop behaving and reacting the way I did, or to start displaying more neurotypical behaviors and mindset - now, as a late-diagnosed individual, I know for certain these behaviors are quite typical of Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD). Examples include direct communication style, understanding messages at face value, and various forms of stimming - that is, behaviors that help reduce stress and may be more or less noticeable to others, for instance playing with all sorts of fidgets, such as pen or pencil. Failing to meet these expectations often results in punishments, hostility, or retribution.

ASD is a condition that cannot be controlled or undone. Autistic individuals cannot choose to have it or not, or to make the symptoms less severe - just as much as a color-blind person would not start to see differences between various colors if their tried harder. Autism is a neurodevelopmental condition and not a matter of merely a specific mindset, choice, being immature or unwilling to change.

The belief, or hope that autism can be “cured” or reversed enables predatory organizations such as Autism Speaks to thrive, and spread misinformation about autism. It also leads neurotypical parents, relatives and employers to set up unrealistic expectations for autistics, and then frustration when we fail to meet these expectations. On the other hand, it is not too convincing to think autistic people would prefer to face negative consequences of being autistic, if we truly had a choice:

An extreme scenario is a meltdown or shutdown - a situation where an autistic individual is overwhelmed with stimuli, emotions and/or stress to the point they cannot control themselves anymore. One possible outcome is visible and verbal, uncontrolled reactions - screaming, covering our eyes or ears, escaping, even physical aggression towards ourselves or others. The other may manifest itself as an inability to speak, process verbal and/or sensory inputs, overall numbness, inability to make decision or desire to withdraw and hide in a safe place.

Key takeaway
Autism and other types of neurodivergence stem from neurological differences, including brain structure, and brain activity. It is not an individual's choice to have them or not.

Masking is self-destructive

Context
In my case, there is no verbal impairment, and my over-sensitivities are usually manageable, however I still do struggle with social interactions, and have significant difficulty reading between the lines, noticing an interpreting social cues. Typical of milder cases of autism, I can mask my autism to some extent, though it is frequently ineffective. Most notably, I try to withstand stressful situations and stimuli while suppressing my body's stress responses, and attempt to leverage rules, patterns and logic to reason about social interactions.

Neurotypical environments, especially school and workplace, require neurodivergent individuals to behave in neurotypical ways and suppress their individual traits in order to be tolerated. Some autistic individuals are capable of masking - camouflaging their autistic traits in order to meet these expectations. This is especially true for those with less pronounced autistic traits, better developed cognitive abilities, and not suffering from verbal impairment. At face value, it may seem tempting to require autistics to mask in order to fit in - after all, neurotypical peers and superiors would not need to leave their comfort zone and adapt to neurodivergence.

Unfortunately, according to National Autistic Society masking is a highly unhealthy coping strategy that is not only physically and emotionally draining, but also has detrimental effects on individual’s health. It puts an autistic person at an elevated risk of developing depression and anxiety disorders - which are already frequent in autistic population. Likewise, while being on the autism spectrum already makes an individual several times more likely to experience suicidal thoughts, and attempt to take their life, suicidal thoughts and behaviors are again even more prevalent in case of masking autistics. The ability to mask often highlights that we are merely tolerated, not accepted, by society or our environment - a deeply depressing reality.

Moreover, masking fails to address the underlying struggles of autistic individuals. We apply masking to avoid attracting negative attention, and retribution to our non-neurotypical ways of communication. Internally, we remain just as autistic as we would be without masking - and emulating neurotypical behavior is physically and emotionally draining. It is also only partially effective - the more severe an individual’s autistic traits are, the more needs to be done in order to mask them, and the more difficult it is to learn masking strategies in the first place.

Key takeaway
Masking is a strategy some autistic individuals apply in order to appear neurotypical, or at least less autistic than we truly are. It is a strategy that takes its toll on an individual's health, and puts us at a higher risk of anxiety, depression, and suicide - an ultimate price for their environments' convenience.

Direct communication is crucial

Context
I frequently come across as blunt and rude - on one hand, I fail to recognize non-verbal and nuanced signs, such as when someone uses gestures, tone of voice, metaphors and sarcasm to convey their message indirectly. On the other - when communicating, I tend to speak my mind and communicate directly, at best softening up my statements and cushioning them to some extent. However, if communicating directly is a taboo - such as in some indirect cultures - even cushioned messages are received as arrogant and disrespectful.

One of the most frequently observed autistic traits - and one contributing to our general struggles with social interactions - is the direct and literal we process messages and information. It is inherently difficult for us to not only notice, but also interpret all of the non-verbal, nuanced social cues that might have a myriad of meanings depending on context - and the sheer complexity of such interactions is simply overwhelming for us. Interacting with an autistic individual and expecting them to correctly interpret such communication is draining for both sides:

In all of these cases, an autistic individual is at a significant risk of mis-communicating with the other person. Regardless of the response, it may, and often does lead to conflicts, which in some cases may escalate. Not being able to properly interpret indirect messages and social cues, an autistic individual has no way of responding in a safe and constructive manner if their interlocutor does not acknowledge the necessity of direct communication.

Likewise, autistic individuals are often misunderstood by neurotypical individuals, who expect hidden meanings and nuances, often seeing them where they are not meant to be. The meaning is laid out in plain sight, however our communication would be combed through for intentions and indirect messages. Avoidance of eye contact or an unusual tone of voice often skews how our messages are interpreted, causing further misunderstandings and conflicts.

Key takeaway
For autistic individuals, it is easier to communicate with neurotypical people if direct and verbal communication is accepted. We struggle with indirectness and nuances, and are often misunderstood by interlocutors looking out for cues we could have accidentally made, while not intending to do so.

We miss unwritten rules and implied expectations

Context
I often attract negative attention by breaking rules and not meeting expectations I was oblivious to. During job interviews, if I get asked to share how I address conflicts and/or why am I looking for a new job, I would provide a detailed explanation with examples, something fellow autistics refer to as "info-dumping" - only to be later rejected for lack of social skills and professionalism. Likewise, I struggle when I get hired for specific skills, and then am implicitly expected to not apply them if it challenges the status quo. It is simply unnatural for me to be asked to meet certain formal expectations, but then expected to follow implicit rules that negate formal ones.

Possibly due to literal understanding of communication, and impaired ability to interpret indirectness and social cues, autistic individuals often struggle with what we perceive as lack of integrity - when the rules and expectations set up for us differ from what is actually expected. This is a fairly typical situation in various social contexts:

Such interactions have a highly negative effect on autistic individuals, for multiple reasons:

Key takeaway
Autistic individuals are frequently oblivious to rules they have not been introduced to in a clear manner, and struggle meeting expectations if they were not presented to them. Similarly, it is immensely confusing to be introduced to a rule or expectation we are implicitly expected not to follow. Setting up rules and expectations openly is crucial for effective cooperation with autistic individuals, and integrating them into the community.

Negative perception

Context
I tend to both give negative impression, and to be especially sensitive to negative signals from others. There are multiple contributing factors - my tone of voice, which often comes across as upset or rude despite my neutral attitude; my limited and rarely joyful facial expression; co-morbidities to autism, most notably anxiety and depression; and finally, learned patterns of negative interactions, which make me anticipate further negative interactions.

Coming across as negative is another trait that seems to be fairly common among individuals suffering from ASD. It is vital to acknowledge there are multiple reasons for that:

These traits and experiences often make us perceive the external world in a negative light. Moreover, our past and current experiences only confirm and reinforce this pessimistic attitude, making it difficult to change the perspective. In workplace settings, we are frequently expected to suppress our autistic traits in order to appear professional and be tolerated - which further contributes to negative perception of reality, which appears to us as oppressive. For these reasons, high-functioning autistic individuals are often highly sensitive to negative communication, such as criticism and rudeness - to us, these are obvious signs of imminent threat, rather than a signal that someone had a bad day.

Additionally, the necessity to survive in an oppressive, if not hostile environment for extended periods makes it difficult for autistic individuals to treat depression and anxiety. If these conditions develop in an autistic individual, it is immensely difficult for them to treat them effectively - without being able to address the causes:

Key takeaway
Coming across as negative is a common trait of autistic individuals, especially if they are high-functioning. At the same time, it is deeply rooted in their past experiences, pattern recognition, and possibly depression and other disorders. Improving mental well-being of autistic individual, similarly to other vulnerable groups, necessitates a safe and inclusive work environment.

Summary

It is challenging for autistic and allistic individuals to communicate effectively with each other. These difficulties stem from various factors, from autistics’ struggles with indirect messages, implied expectations, and a baggage of difficult experiences, to over-interpreting autistic behaviors and communication by neurotypical individuals. Autistic people are at a disadvantage in this regard - we are a minority and expected to adapt to a largely neurotypical society, while our condition makes it immensely difficult, if not impossible to meet this expectation.

Improving the situation requires a deeper understanding of why autistic individuals function and behave as they do. Building a safer and more accepting society is a far more effective strategy at alleviating negative sides of autism than stigmatization, ostracism and punishing for displaying autistic traits.